Those who think the dress is black and blue, and those who think it is gold and white. Jusssttt kidding. Do you guys remember that ridiculous picture of the dress that was floating around the internet a few years ago!? If you have no idea what I am talking about you are probably sitting there looking at your screen like what. the. heck. What I really want to say is that I feel like there are two types of people in this world; people who can eat whatever they want and not gain weight and people who have to watch what they eat or they will gain weight relentlessly.
Now are you with me? Now let’s be clear. This is not based in any scientific fact. There is no technical term for this or real way to determine if you fall on one side or the other. However, from my twenty six years of living I genuinely do feel like the majority of people fall into one of these two categories. Can you guess which one I fall into? Yep, you guessed it. I sure do need to watch what I eat. I have had friends and roommates and family members and boyfriends and lived enough life to see that other people also have the same issue, while others can have a casual late night snack fest (on a daily basis) and not have to worry about packing on the pounds. People on my side of this great divide generally envy those on the other side. I do believe there is some science to back up this claim, based on the fact that everyone has a different metabolism and some are just blessed with one that kicks into overdrive. There are many things that play into this such as your hormones and cortisol levels but lets face it, I am no expert in that. All I really know is that I am not the type of person who can just check out of caring about what I put into my body, unless I don’t mind the side effects – weight gain.
Now, I am not saying that I believe that if you are over here with me in the category of if-I-eat-pizza-all-day-every-day-I-will-get-fat that it is wrong to eat pizza, or wrong to check out. It isn’t. It isn’t wrong to gain weight or be over weight or have a muffin top or jiggly arms. For me, ultimately, I passed a threshold where I was no longer okay with the extra fat and jiggle. I decided to take a step (or two) waaaay back and look at my relationship with food (more on that another time) and made the decision to be much more thoughtful with what I put into my body. For me, most often times, I would eat things that tasted absolutely delicious but made me feel bad both mentally and physically. The worst part about that is, I struggled a lot with portion control. I swear there is something in pizza that makes it as additive as crack (there may actually be science behind this, I hope). In theory, splurging on a delicious pizza or amazing burger is TOTALLY FINE. In reality, I could eat an entire pizza to myself, and I would damn sure try. These foods are so dangerous for me. I know that they do not ultimately provide my body with the nutrients that it needs. They make me feel sluggish, bloated, tired, and just all around gross. They make me feel guilty because I know better. But for some reason, I would just keep going back for more. I had no plan for the way I was eating, and it showed. The pounds came and kept coming until I couldn’t stand it anymore. I didn’t feel good physically, and I didn’t feel good mentally. To top it all off, I didn’t like who I was or how I was acting.
I find it most interesting that you really can’t tell a person’s health by looking at them. The people on the other side of the great divide that are going to McDonald’s and Taco Bell and never have been to the gym in their life might look slim, but we surely do not know the health issues they may have. We don’t know the way they feel about their bodies. We also don’t know that someone is unhealthy just because they have a few extra pounds. That person could walk their 10,000 steps a day and have kale and quinoa up the wazoo! YOU JUST DON’T KNOW. But for some odd reason it is almost impossible not to compare ourselves to others. The bottom line is, it is most important to feel good about ourselves no matter where we fall on this spectrum. Health is such a broad term and we need to define what it means to US. Yes, there are a lot of diseases and illnesses and things that define health in a more literal sense. I am talking about health in a way that makes us feel good, mentally and physically. We have to make decisions that make us feel GOOD. That make us feel satisfied, energized, fulfilled, light, cozy, proud, and beautiful (to name a few). If those decisions mean that you walk around the block every other day and eat salads for lunch and a cookie for dessert, then GO FOR IT. If you never work out or work out six times a day. If you are a complete snob about ingredients (Hi, that’s me) or if you are stoked that Chipotle came out with chorizo nationwide.
I say all of this to say, it doesn’t really matter what side you are on. What matters is that you make decisions that you feel good about for your body because at the end of the day IT’S YOUR BODY. You’ve only got one.